Hey everyone!
I've not been on the forum for a while. Feels like it's been difficult last few weeks to get a moment to myself between work, my three year old daughter, house chores and squeezing in those workouts!
After this mornings workout, I got pretty emotional too! I haven't really stepped back and reflected properly on how far I've come. Before lockdown last year I was in a pretty bad place. I wasn't very confident, I weighed myself everyday without fail (which would decide my mood for the day, how much I ate etc) and I was just in a really unhealthy mind frame. People would say I'm crazy, I have nothing to worry about as I was a size 8/10. But in my mind I felt unhappy with everything I seen in the mirror. Most of the time I was very good at hiding it and would portray a different person on a night out, and you would probably look at me and think 'wow that girl is confident'. But inside I was crumbling. Throughout the day I would be pinching myself, looking in the mirror, completely conscious of how I looked and presented myself. I was living off barely any food and excercising like crazy. I was constantly exhausted and getting ill.
Then I found Maeve in March, thanks to my sister. Nothing really changed to begin with, I was participating in all the insta workouts, I was enjoying all the chats and positivity. But my mind frame and eating habits was very much the same. I started losing more and more weight...and rather than strong, I just felt weak.
But as time went by, and with the right help and support I started to get better. This community has been the core of helping me. My husband laughs each time I mention @Maeve Madden , like she's a close friend. But you have honestly been such a breath of fresh air. All the chats, tips, positive posts, real ness and honesty has been the most incredible journey to follow (I hate the word journey, but it really has been one) You helped me out of a really hard place. You have educated me in so much...how to live a healthy lifestyle, to banish the bitch scales, to enjoy life and food again, how to become strong, my form in workouts has improved and so much more. I have laughed and cried with you and the rest of the queens. I am now at a healthy weight, I have definition and strength, i have a healthy diet and allow myself treats. I still have my down days and struggles but nothing in comparison to what it was!
This really is the most amazing community! And I thank you with all my heart.
I could go on and on! (Apologies for the essay!)
I know many queens will feel the same way! I celebrated my birthday the Friday just gone and I didn't feel guilt about the cake and prosexy! 🙌🏼
